The colliding of worlds-motherhood, teaching, and maintaining my fitness level
It was listed on the WOD to find a 1RM of our thruster. So I used the narrower bar and went searching for 10 lb weights. There wasn’t any available until suddenly coach was next to me saying to put 65 on the bar. I did practice was 65, but was not confident I’d make it so many reps. He said to push myself. I figured ok, I’ll take them 3 at a time…except I was messing up all over the place. I had to keep putting it down, which meant I had to keep “cleaning” it which was more work, then I don’t jump right, I jump back so the bar comes out in front then I have to chase it to be above my head…I was in that dark, I hate the bar place…I was hoping, oh coach will sneak in and change my weights or something, but instead he said to just “JUMP” and I wanted to and I got out of the dark scary place of discouragement and I’m going to cry. I no longer was doing thruster just pushing the bar up. My last round my daughter was jumping all around with my phone taking selfies and I was getting pretty annoyed and distracted by her. Somehow it all ended and coach said I was jumping too soon and needed to feel the bar on my shoulders first. Ok, lessons learned, I need practice with the bar and I hope my thrusters never turn into push presses again when I am prescribed thrusters.
I now work out every day. Sometimes I just do yoga on my “rest” day. I am so gung ho on running 3x a week that when I realized that this week I had plans on both Mon and Thurs, I started having anxiety. No runs this week? Just 4 days of CF and a race on Sat? Oh hell no! My shin splints, my plan…I can’t stop what I’ve started for fear of not progressing. I know if I keep at it that everything will continue to feel good, I’ll continue to get faster and grow. I was NEVER like this before. Holiday party? Not running or working out. Now, I’m like “ok let me rearrange my entire schedule and life to acomodate one day off” Thinking I need a treadmill, ‘cause running at the dark lonely high school was a little creepy, and now with snow on the way…,
9 miles in 2 days…
I changed up my CF days so that I could run every other day. My body has taught me that I cannot be one of those crossfit/runners who just shows up on race day and can bang out 13 miles. If I do not run at least 3x a week then I start to get shin splints. I also know 3x in a row of crossfit is a lot and I start to feel really fatigued by the 3rd day. so my days will be mon, wed, fri, and sat for now as much as I can.
So I considered using 75# for this, I tried it during prep time and it wasn’t pretty. I kind of lost my balance and it didn’t feel comfortable. My first round I miscounted and did 5 burpees and 10 squats so my numbers were low. I kept trying to make it up in other rounds but the best i did was 2 + 9. I really want to keep getting higher each round, but it didn’t happen. :(
Sat as a group we had a really easy team WOD of situps, hrpu, row, d.u., and box jumps. We did a station, ran 200, did a station, until we did all stations.
Running and deadlifts! I like both so I was looking forward to it. However, I really need to concentrate on my deads to make sure I am keeping my arms straight and not jerking the bar. Then there is the whole bringing the bar down which needs to be done correctly. I realize that my prep work ahead of class makes for a less stressful class, so I knew the last time I did deads I did them @ 120, but it was a shorter workout. This one was 105 so I knew I needed to go lighter so I did 80% of the 120 and decided 105 would be ok. But by the 4th and 5th round I was doing only 3 at a time. That damn bar was hurting my lower back and today my shoulders are killing me! I thought my back would be hurting today, but no, it’s my shoulders. I tried to keep up my run, but when there is other exercise involved that runs slows waaaaay down! I’m trying to work out a plan for running too. I know I can’t take 3 days off of running b/c then I get shin splints. I love how other crossfitters barely have to train for their distance runs. I wish that was the case, but for me, the more I run, the better I run and the less shin splint issues I have. Besides, no matter what, I will always be a runner!
the class was so big we split up into heats. Women vs. men. I was so distracted chatting with the women about who had a good squat snatch that I forgot to take a pic. OH squats are tough, I practiced with some weight, but also know my form still sucks so I did an empty bar. Leg raises he had us go super high, as if we were doing shoulder stances. Def tired after 30 of those!
usually after i run I am not sore. today my calves were sore! I was happy that my two friends were there today (V and K) V just started two weeks ago and I really like her! She is strong and sweet and has a nice vibe to her. I did the 35 pound kb swings and doubled my push ups. I can do about 12 kb swings at that weight before I have to rest, it was my 2nd time using that weight, I think I’ll use it more. burpees are sooo slow for me! I know I am getting faster, but it still feels slow every freakin time! As I was finishing some dude who was completing his hand stand push ups, backed up and stepped on my wrist, ouch! I lost about 10 sec. yelling and then moving out of his way. spent thanksgiving talking about cf with my sister in law. it was so great to go on and on and on!
Great cross country course, way too cold, I thought I had a hat in my pocket, or a head band in my bag, but I didn’t have anything for my head. I saw my daughter’s scarf and tied that around my head, it helped when the wind kicked up.
I would never say CF is “easy” but on Wed, I kinda screwed up properly challenging myself. I had been doing ring rows for pull ups (which I really really like!) but I asked coach if I should do them or not and he said to do jumping on a box ones. I didn’t realize that when they are easy that way to turn the box down so its not at its highest. so I flew through the pull ups. I also tried to do my squat clean thruster with 55 but it was a bit uncomfortable so I just used 50. I was totally done with the whole thing before everyone and I didn’t want to be first, it wasn’t like I was running as hard as I could and totally killing everyone. I just scaled it back too much. So I threw in extra jumpropes at the end.
Where does it begin? Maybe 2 years ago when I decided for the first time ever to try a boot camp class. I was so afraid to lift more than 3 pound weights. I wanted to work my legs out more than my arms, and by the end of 8 weeks I looked better and felt stronger. I knew that I needed more, but could not figure out how to fit crossfit 2 towns away into my schedule. so i put it on hold. In the meantime I went through 2 miscarriages,a diagnosis of PCOS, 8 months of fertility treatments and a really long depression.
I knew I needed to get back in the exercise game after this past summer. I looked at my vacation pics and was so disappointed with what I looked like. I went back through pics and saw that the last time I looked really good was when I was doing boot camp. So at 136 pounds, I started the month of Aug of 2013 by working out every day. I started biking, running, doing yoga, and swimming. By the third week of Aug I was ready for something more. I found a box much closer to my house and my job. I did the free trial class and realized how weak I was, but I wanted to keep coming back. I knew I wanted to sign up right away.
One of the important pieces for me was to stop hating my body for having miscarriages. I was so frustrated by my PCOS gut that I considered having a tummy tuck to get rid of it once and for all. Crossfit has taught me to be ok with everything that I am at this moment. It has taught me to push harder through things that are difficult, that I am stronger than I think I am, and mostly that when you look good, you feel good!
I posted my three month crossfitversary info, but I wanted to log this for myself.
3 months today!
Size: went from 8 to a 6
and I have finally gotten over the fear of the bar!
I ran a 7:53 mile the other day…
On to Yolanda…
24 min is a long time to be working out on a WOD, jumps are getting faster so I did try to jump higher and see if I could land a double under…not there yet!
I put 5 lbs on the bar to put it over my head, I chose split jerk which may have taken more time, but I am a superfan of the split jerk!
Back squats were fine, they were supposed to be 13, but coach made an error so they were 3.